things: my friend paige told me that one of her friends is pretty much the spitting image of me. she showed me a picture of her awhile back and i was amazed at how much she looked like me. paige’s friend came into j.crew yesterday and i introduced myself to her. needless to say, it was a weird feeling. you know you’re exhausted from working 5 days in a row when you fall up the...
the last few days have been really eventful. i’ve finished my last full semester at UBC, which feels pretty surreal. i mean, i’m not officially finished yet, but i finish in june, which is not that far away. yesterday was a good day. i met up with justine, who coincidentally knows me from tumblr, yet she works a few doors down from where i work, which is pretty cool. i paid a...
freedom has never felt so good. actually, i’m sure it’ll feel better when i’m completely done with school in three months.
wednesday - on-call 3-7 pm, my aunt and uncle are leaving, thank goodness / FREEDOM from 4th year for three weeks thursday - lunch with justine, stars concert with jialin, maria and clayton friday - ??? saturday - work from 12-6, clare and mia’s going away celebration somewhere in between, i need to pick up my may u-pass and figure out my life.
[[MORE]] i’ve been feeling so confined these days. i guess it doesn’t help that i haven’t finished school yet, but i think i’ve probably brought all of this upon myself. i can’t stay at jesse’s anymore, because his landlord had a talk with him and found out that his neighbour’s boyfriend has been living with her. she apparently thought it’d be...
things: i am finished all my exams. i have one term paper to write that’s due on wednesday and is worth 75% of my final grade (TERRIFYING!!!) speaking of terrifying, my terrifying and ridiculously annoying aunt is in town and is staying here for the week. somebody, please save me. today, she asked my mom why the speedbumps in vancouver are so big. what. “hey guys. do you know...
things: my dad told me that he went to a pet store the other day to pick up some goldfish for our pond. out of nowhere, he hears someone saying “hello,” so he assumes the “person” is talking to him. he says “hello” back until he realizes that it was a parrot saying “hello.” omg. my last exam is tomorrow and my last term paper is due on tuesday....
me: “hey dad, i have an exam tomorrow.” my dad: “there is only darkness at the end of the tunnel.”
mitsukejima asked: omg if he had impregnated you from the beginning, you'd be having a baby today
today, i am celebrating nine months with jesse. wow.
you guys, i’m eating croutons and lemon wafers to distract myself from writing this 8 page paper on the canterbury tales. i’m almost finished my second page, but croutons and wafers.
Nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.– Nicole Krauss, The History of Love
spending my night writing an 8 page term paper on a book that i never read. and i have an exam tomorrow too.
things that happened at work today: a customer telling me that i have “mad swagger for a chinese person” a customer and his two female friends were upstairs in men’s. his two friends were taking photos of everything he was trying on with a fancy dSLR and they had no idea how to use the flash and kept asking each other “do you know how to use the flash?”...
i finished my 4,500+ word term paper on “the waste land” (a poem that i have a deep love/hate relationship with) before midnight. i would celebrate, but i have an exam, as well as an 8 page paper due on wednesday and another exam and a 4 page paper due on friday. such is life.
it’s so easy to dismiss things and write them off as if they never happened. i’m really good at doing that. i forget about things for awhile until they resurface and disappear again; it’s a vicious cycle. but this time around, it feels different. i’m fine, but a small part of me says that i’m not fine. it’s going to take time, it always does i really hope...
it’s funny how things and feelings can change so quickly. thursday night was incredibly difficult for me. i let my mind and thoughts wander into a dark place i never wish to visit again and i am so thankful for the people who always listen to me if i am ever feeling down. i wish i could adequately express how much love i have for you guys, but just know that it’s a lot of love. ...
ana kraš + devendra banhart = the cutest couple.
i received so many kind and supportive messages last night and i just want to thank you guys for being there for me, because i really did need it. we had a good talk - i need to stop overthinking things and jumping to conclusions, because it only makes things worse and he needs to work on his communication with me. everything is going to be ok.
mydearholmes asked: HERE IS A CYBER-HUG! YOU GET A CYBER-HUG! IT'S OKAY TO FEEL SAD BUT I HOPE YOU'LL FEEL HAPPY SOON! *hugs
things: tomorrow, i will be finished with classes for the semester i am so pleased with the new fall/winter issue of freckled i’m going to try and move out this summer jesse had a small ant infestation at his place the other night. when i was sitting in class yesterday, two ants crawled out of my laptop and freaked me out. and then last night, i had a dream that i was being attacked by...
today was a good day. i had a busy day at work and then went for ramen with jesse, eric and marissa. the beautiful weather is definitely making me a lot happier.
my heart doesn’t hurt anymore. i think i’m going to be ok.
just got back from meeting jesse’s family for the first time ever. i am pleased to say that it went really well, thank goodness.
lately - spending hours at the vancouver public library, being educated by jesse about menswear, waking up constantly in the middle of the night, passing out on the bus the next morning, long walks to whole foods to buy groceries, running into jialin on campus, good conversations with good friends, planning hypothetical trips in the future with friends, panicking about term papers and final...